TASA: Time And Space Adventures
What I was before I met/became/merged with/partnered with Nusa is in many ways irrelevant. All the is truly relevant is that Nusa knew/believed that I was worthy/acceptable. I know this because in some sense I am Nusa and thus to some extent I know what Nusa knew/knows.
To be clear, if that is even vaguely possible, while I have access to "my" memories before Nusa, and access to "our" memories from before I was Nusa, I don't have all access all the time to all of what Nusa is/knows. I couldn't possibly, and wouldn't want to, have such access.
I have good reasons for not letting myself know everything I know, and Nusa has even better reasons for not wanting me to know, and I even know some of those reasons. But to be honest there is a large amount of trust involved. I should actually be even more honest and say, even though I am a bit uncomfortable thinking or saying it, I have "faith".
Why should I, or anyone feel uncomfortable saying they have "faith"? If a good answer isn't instantly available to you perhaps you live what I would consider a very lucky existence, or you are ignorant of how terrifyingly horrible things can become when basing decisions and actions on "faith" is taken as an appropriate/normal way of things.
Enough of that.
Let's start at the beginning.
A collided with B causing distortions in both. B's distortions encountered C, subtly altering C. A's distortions radically transformed D, so much so in fact we call it E. B's distortions were further distorted by a reverberation from it's encounter with C. This rippled back to force a change in A, which had the potential to erase some of the changes in D, but D was E and therefore unavailable for influence, thus A was further distorted in such a way it caused A, C and B to become so close to everything E was we'd call it E but we can't so it became EZ. E absorbed F,G and H forming Z, which allows us to call EZ "E" which collided directly with Z which is why we called it EZ in the second place. Thus everything known was EZ, but since, as we all know, and trust me seriously no pun is intended, nothing is always EZ, EZ became nothing, but since, and I swear still no pun intended, nothing can't be anything or it won't be nothing thus nothing can't be EZ so nothing became everything and since everything is hard EZ became hard and substance as we (sort of) think of it became conceptually permissible as EZ became Y. A side effect of which was a transformational ejecta sequence of A,B,F,G and H. The ejecta sequence was such that naturally A collided with B allowing for all that came before. Y spawned X and W which collided and destroyed each other with the resultant energy transferring back to Y which spawned U and V which also collided and also sent the energy back to Y. Y resisted further ejection and all recursion, division, profusion, collision and yet was unable to resist transformation. Eventually the transformation was so great that we call Y I. I was the end of all that came before but also the beginning of all that came after. I was the first and the last, (dare I say it) the alpha and omega from which T came. But even though T is from I, T is still part of I, and T contains part of I, So all there is/was is IT. IT is all that matters. IT is all that can be imagined. IT is all there is.
Have I started too far back?
Okay, once upon a time there was a person and another person and a bunch more persons and they did lots of stuff and eventually some of the children of some of their children's children's great great great ... great grand children eventually set in motion events that led to the destruction of their world and all life on it. Call this sequence A, or just A.
This same basic sequence of events happened on a great many other worlds.
Once upon another time a very similar sequence took place ending with the destruction of most but not all life on the world. Call this sequence B or just B.
This same basic sequence of events happened on a great many other worlds.
The remaining life eventually evolved until once again there where persons. Call this sequence B, or just B.
Sometimes the B sequence cycled into an A sequence. Sometimes it cycled into another B sequence.
Once upon a time either an A or B sequence was taking place but before the cycle ended some of the life on that world managed to leave the world before the cycle ended and while that doesn't change the fact that all or most life ON the world was ended, the life off the world was outside the sequence. Such a sequence where life escaped is called AE or BE.
Wait, let me try this again.
Sometimes life exists and evolves until there is life that can be considered people. Most of the time those people eventually set into motion a series of events that causes those people to be destroyed. Less often almost all life on that world is destroyed. Slightly less often ALL life on that world is destroyed. If life remains and eventually evolves into people most likely one of the same things happens. Even though in an individual case it is most likely for life to remain, repeated cycles eventually make it so that the most likely outcome is for all life on that world to be destroyed.
For a given world that manages to continue to have life on it through multiple cycles there remains a chance that people will evolve and not destroy everything. But these cycles take time, life doesn't evolve into people quickly. During this time there are other things that can destroy the world or the life on it. I could give you a list of such things, such as material collisions, energy streams, but if I listed all the varieties this would take far too long.
One way or another most of the times life does evolve on a world it is destroyed either by itself or by an outside force. This is merely the nature of the universe.
Very rarely, relatively speaking, life evolves and somehow makes it to another world/place or even many worlds/places before the destruction cycle completes.
Space is enormous and time is vast, and in most of space most of the time there are no people. In fact in most places most of the time there is no life, and actually no planets or stars or anything more complex than virtual particles springing into and out of existence. Still if you tried to list all the peoples that have or will exist someplace in time and space you would never have time or space enough to list them.
No matter how long a being might live and no matter how quickly they could go from place/time to place/time they could never even come close to visiting even a small fraction of all the societies of people that have and will exist. And really, who would want too anyway?
Nusa would.
Nusa can perceive things in time/space in a manner that is hard to understand. Nusa can "feel" the existence of people in a sense, and can interact with them in some circumstances in some ways. I will try to explain with examples. Examples using narrative full of metaphors that allow the desired information to be imparted in a way you may be able to grasp.
Imagine...